Over the past 4 years of being a Mother I've always felt I was a bit different than most moms. I'm over the phrase mom guilt, and often don't feel guilty for the decisions I make. However, I do want to discuss this topic that has often crossed my mind.
When moms talk about not being able to leave their baby with anyone or the tears they shed dropping their kids off at daycare for the first time. I'm always on the other side of the conversation thinking, I don't feel like that at all. Am I heartless? Do I love my children less because I don't feel so attached? Am I an emotionless mom?
When moms write sappy Instagram captions about how they wish for time to slow down and their babies to stop growing, and how they cried putting away baby clothes that were too small...I never can relate. I never feel that way. I almost feel the opposite. I'm ready for my babies to get out of the newborn stage, I'm ready to get rid of baby items. I'm not sure if I feel guilty or simply different for thinking this way. I've questioned my parenting when I'm around moms who have an extremely different lifestyle than I. I didn't breastfeed, I didn't stay at home. I chose to work and I chose to formula feed. I know I'm a good mom, but should I feel different? Why don't I feel like most moms? I think it boils down to personality, and this is simply who I am. I'm loud, outgoing, sometimes crude and an open book. I trust easily, and don't harbor much fear when it comes to the safety of my children. Every once in a while I have a freak out moment where I think about some crazy situation that could happen to my kids, and I immediately start praying. Praying for safety and comfort.
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